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He Humiliated Me, Then Wanted Me Back
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He chose his underboss over me and humiliated me in front of the entire syndicate on our wedding anniversary, so I chose my brother, walked away from the empire, and never looked back. Now the man wh...
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第1章
The entire syndicate gathered to celebrate our fifth wedding anniversary.
As the donna of the Dacre empire, I stood beside my husband, Nikolai Dacre, the most feared don on the eastern seaboard. In his black tailored suit, with that cold, devastating face and the quiet power that made grown men lower their eyes, he looked exactly like what the underworld believed him to be—untouchable, ruthless, perfect.
“Mrs. Dacre, you look stunning tonight,” one of the capos’ wives said with a bright smile.
Nikolai slid an arm around my waist, his touch light but possessive, as if he still had every right to claim me.
“She always does,” he said smoothly, his deep voice carrying just enough warmth to make the room melt.
A few people laughed softly. Others raised their glasses. Someone muttered that Don Dacre still looked at his wife like she hung the moon.
Nikolai leaned down and pressed a kiss to my temple, painting the perfect portrait of a devoted husband in front of the entire room.
And all I could think was how badly I wanted to tear his mask off in front of everyone.
Because I knew the truth.
Earlier that afternoon, I had gone into his private office to leave the cufflinks I’d bought him for our anniversary. I wasn’t snooping. I never needed to. In our world, survival taught you to notice things men thought you were too soft to see.
That was when I found the velvet box tucked inside the bottom drawer of his desk.
My hands had gone cold as I opened it.
Inside was a diamond-and-ruby necklace so breathtaking it made my breath catch. Not because it was beautiful, but because it was personal. Rubies had always been my favorite. Nikolai knew that. He also knew I had stopped wearing them years ago because he once told me red was too loud, too vulgar, too hungry on a woman like me.
He had never bought me rubies.
Not once.
Tucked beneath the necklace was a handwritten note.
To my dearest love, Via.
Via Lousar.
Sister of his underboss. The woman he swore meant nothing. The woman whose name had followed us like a ghost for nearly a year.
I had suspected it for months. The late-night meetings that never needed minutes. The calls he took in private. The way Via smiled at him like she already owned what belonged to me. The way Nikolai stopped touching me when no one was looking.
But that note?
That note didn’t leave room for lies.
“Vivica.”
His voice dragged me back to the present. I looked up to find him watching me with those dark, unreadable eyes, one hand extended toward me.
In it was a small black box.
“Happy anniversary, tesoro.”
The crowd instantly erupted into applause. Glasses lifted. Cameras flashed. Every head in the ballroom turned toward us beneath the glittering chandeliers of the Dacre estate.
I opened the box carefully.
Inside lay a sapphire necklace.
The gemstones were deep blue, elegant, expensive, and completely wrong.
A murmur swept across the room.
“It’s gorgeous.”
“What a gift.”
“Only the don could pull off something like that.”
Nikolai smiled as if he’d just offered me the moon. “Beautiful, isn’t it?”
I looked at the necklace, then up at the man who had spent the afternoon buying rubies for his mistress and the evening fastening sapphires around my throat like a chain.
“It’s lovely,” I said softly.
And everyone smiled, believing they had just witnessed another perfect moment in a perfect marriage.
No one saw the way my nails bit into my palm.
No one noticed how hard it was to breathe.
The orchestra started up again. More wine flowed. Men toasted to loyalty, legacy, blood, and family—the usual lies dressed in crystal and gold. Nikolai stayed close, playing his part flawlessly. He touched the small of my back when people were watching. He pulled out my chair. He kissed my knuckles like I was still the center of his world.
To everyone else, we were power incarnate.
The king and queen of a criminal empire.
But queens always know when the crown is slipping.
Later in the evening, while Nikolai was entertaining a group of allies from Chicago, I saw her.
Via stood near the bar in a red silk dress that clung to her like sin. Diamonds glittered at her throat, but not the ones he’d bought her. Not tonight. Tonight, she wanted me to know she could wait. Her lips curved when our eyes met, smug and venomous.
She raised her champagne glass in my direction like we were sharing a secret.
Then Nikolai looked at her.
It was only for a second. A flicker. Barely noticeable.
But I saw it.
And worse—so did she.
A few minutes later, his phone buzzed in his pocket. He glanced down, then leaned close to me, his mouth near my ear.
“Excuse me for a moment,” he murmured. “There’s business I need to handle.”
Business.
That was what he called her now.
I smiled up at him with perfect grace. “Of course.”
He kissed my cheek and disappeared into the crowd, moving through the ballroom with the quiet authority of a man everyone feared and no one dared stop.
I stood there alone, still smiling as guests drifted toward me.
“You and Nikolai are marriage goals,” one woman sighed.
“You two are stronger than ever,” another added.
I nearly laughed.
Instead, I thanked them and sipped my champagne, letting the bubbles burn my throat.
Then my phone vibrated in my clutch.
I looked down.
A message from an unknown number.
No, not unknown.
Unwanted.
Via:
The sapphires are pretty. But we both know who he buys rubies for.
My stomach turned cold.
A photo followed.
Nikolai stood in one of the estate’s private hallways, half-shadowed by golden light. Via was pressed close to him, his hand flat against her lower back, his head bent toward her as though whatever she was saying mattered more than the wife he had just left standing in a ballroom full of people.
It wasn’t even the intimacy that hurt most.
It was how familiar he looked.
Relaxed. Unguarded. Real.
A version of him I had not seen in a very long time.
For one wild moment, I wanted to march down that hallway, throw the photo in his face, and demand he deny it in front of everyone.
But I didn’t.
Women in our world survived by mastering silence before they ever learned revenge.
So I lifted my chin, locked my phone, and walked back into the party like I wasn’t bleeding under my skin.
When Nikolai returned twenty minutes later, not a hair out of place, he wore the same calm expression he used in meetings before deciding who lived and who disappeared.
“The Conti shipment hit a delay,” he said. “I had to deal with it.”
Naturally.
I met his gaze and smiled. “You’re always handling something.”
His eyes lingered on me for a moment, as if testing whether I meant more than the words.
If he sensed anything, he didn’t show it.
By the end of the night, he escorted me upstairs himself, one hand firm at my waist as if I still belonged to him. As if this was still our home. As if he hadn’t just humiliated me in the shadows while the entire syndicate toasted our love in the light.
“You did well tonight,” he said once we reached our bedroom. “You represented this family exactly the way you should.”
I turned to look at him.
Represented.
That was what I was now. Not his wife. Not his partner. Not the woman who built half his empire by standing beside him through blood, war, and betrayal.
A symbol. A beautifully dressed weapon. A silent queen on a marble chessboard.
“The men respect you,” he continued, loosening his cufflinks. “They see stability when they look at us.”
Us.
The word tasted like poison.
He stepped closer and brushed a strand of hair from my face, his fingers grazing my cheek with a tenderness that would have broken me once.
“I’ll be back later,” he said. “There’s one last thing I need to take care of.”
I didn’t ask where he was going.
I already knew.
So I nodded.
He left without another word.
The bedroom door clicked shut behind him.
Silence rushed in.
For a long moment, I stood there in the center of our suite, surrounded by designer furniture, fresh roses, and five years of lies. Then I reached up, unclasped the sapphire necklace, and let it fall onto the bedspread.
The blue stones gleamed against the silk comforter like a mockery.
Not a gift.
A leash.
I stared at it, then at my reflection in the mirror across the room.
Perfect hair. Perfect gown. Perfect mafia wife.
But my eyes were no longer soft.
They were sharp. Awake. Furious.
Nikolai thought I would keep wearing the jewels, smiling for his men, and pretending not to see what he did in the dark.
He thought loyalty meant I would stay.
He thought humiliation would break me before betrayal ever could.
He was wrong.
Because if Nikolai Dacre wanted to hand his heart, his secrets, and his weakness to another woman, then he could keep all of it.
I was done being the beautiful wife he displayed in public while dishonoring me in private.
And if walking away meant choosing my brother, leaving the Dacre empire behind, and setting fire to everything I helped build—
Then so be it.
Let the king keep his throne.
I was ready to watch his kingdom bleed.
第2章
The Dacre estate’s private dining hall buzzed with conversation, crystal, and carefully rehearsed laughter. Another celebration, another flawless affair arranged by Don Nikolai Dacre with the same precision he used to run his empire.
To everyone else in the room, the evening looked elegant, powerful, and enviable—a portrait of loyalty, wealth, and family.
To me, it felt like slow suffocation wrapped in silk and candlelight.
I stepped inside wearing a dark green gown, understated but refined, the kind of dress that didn’t beg for attention. It was nothing like the ruby piece Via had been given. In this world, the don’s wife was expected to command the room without effort, to be dazzling without seeming desperate.
Tonight, I felt invisible.
Not because I lacked presence.
Because another woman had made sure the spotlight no longer belonged to me.
Nikolai met me near the entrance, polished and commanding in a black dinner jacket. A smile spread across his face as he looked me over, smooth and practiced enough to fool anyone watching.
“You kept everyone waiting,” he said, amusement lacing his tone, though the sharpness in his eyes suggested he didn’t appreciate it.
“I had business to finish,” I answered, lifting my lips into a polite smile that carried none of the warmth he expected.
He bent toward me and brushed a kiss against my cheek, brief and hollow, like a gesture performed for an audience rather than a wife.
“You still know how to make an entrance,” he murmured.
I said nothing to that. I simply let him escort me farther inside.
The moment we entered together, heads turned. Glasses lifted. Applause rippled across the room. Men nodded respectfully, women smiled with admiration, and Nikolai acknowledged them all with the ease of a man born to be watched.
I remained at his side, composed and silent, playing the role expected of me.
The room glittered with old money and criminal power. Capos exchanged stories over whiskey. Their wives traded pleasantries. Laughter rose from every corner as if this gathering were genuine and not built on fear, leverage, and blood-soaked loyalty.
Nikolai slipped into the center of it effortlessly, charming and untouchable, every inch the don they worshipped.
But my attention drifted elsewhere.
At the far end of the room, Via Lousar stood with a glass of red wine in one hand, dressed in a scarlet gown that hugged her body like temptation itself. She looked less like a guest and more like a provocation.
She knew exactly what she was doing.
The moment her eyes found mine, the corners of her mouth curved. Slowly, deliberately, she lifted her glass in my direction, as though sharing some private joke only the two of us could understand.
My fingers tightened around the stem of my own glass until the chill of it bit into my skin.
Humiliation burned hot beneath my calm face.
“Vivica.”
Nikolai’s voice cut through my thoughts. I turned to find him watching me, one hand resting lightly on my arm.
“There’s something I want you to have,” he said.
I looked at him evenly. “Another offering?”
He either ignored the edge in my tone or chose not to hear it. Reaching into his pocket, he handed me a small velvet box, confidence already curling at the corners of his mouth.
“This one should please you.”
I opened it.
Inside lay a pair of sapphire earrings, exquisite and expensive, chosen to match the necklace he’d already presented earlier. Blue again. Always blue. Elegant, tasteful, controlled.
Never what I actually wanted.
“They’re beautiful,” I said in a low voice, though there was no real feeling behind it.
I closed the box and set it aside without ceremony.
For the briefest second, irritation flickered across his face. Then it vanished behind the same effortless mask he wore for the rest of the world.
“Come,” he said. “Sit with me.”
He guided me toward the head of the table, where power was always most visible.
We hadn’t taken more than a few steps before Via crossed the room toward us, every movement sleek, graceful, deliberate. She drew attention without asking for it, the way dangerous women often did.
She stopped in front of Nikolai first, smiling as though she had every right in the world.
“You look especially dangerous tonight, Don Dacre,” she said softly, letting one hand rest against his sleeve with an intimacy that made my stomach twist.
Nikolai gave a low laugh, and instead of removing her hand, he let his fingers briefly settle over hers.
“And you never fail to make an impression, Via.”
The exchange lasted only seconds.
It was enough.
I felt the moment like a blade sliding between my ribs.
Then she turned to me, her expression warm on the surface and poisonous underneath.
“Mrs. Dacre,” she said sweetly. “That necklace looks lovely on you. Nikolai has always had exceptional taste.”
I met her smile with one of my own. “Thank you. And your dress certainly demands attention. Not everyone can wear something so bold and survive it.”
The sweetness in her expression sharpened.
Only slightly.
But I saw it.
The air between us tightened, invisible and razor-thin, our words still dipped in civility while everything underneath them threatened war.
Beside me, Nikolai shifted as if sensing the tension he had helped create.
“Let’s not turn dinner into theater,” he said with a strained chuckle. “Tonight is supposed to be enjoyable.”
Via’s gaze stayed fixed on mine as she lifted her glass. “Of course. It’s a night for devotion, loyalty, and the ties that last.”
The words landed exactly where she meant them to.
My pulse kicked harder, but I refused to let her see the hit.
So I raised my own glass with measured grace.
“To the connections that endure,” I replied. “Whether they’re spoken aloud or hidden in the dark.”
Her smile grew tighter.
Nikolai, whether blind to it or simply unwilling to intervene, turned away and began speaking to one of his captains as if the quiet bloodletting between us had never happened.
The dinner dragged on.
Every laugh grated against my nerves. Every toast sounded false. The room was full of smiling faces and polished lies, and with every passing minute the act became harder to endure.
I could feel the weight of every betrayal pressing harder against my chest. Every glance. Every lie. Every time I had been expected to stand still and look regal while my marriage rotted in plain sight.
By the time dessert was served, I knew I couldn’t sit there another second.
I set down my glass and rose with a faint excuse about needing air.
No one stopped me.
The hallway outside was quiet, dim, and blissfully free of witnesses. I walked farther than necessary, my heels clicking against the marble floor, until I reached the shadowed corridor near the west wing.
Only then did I let myself breathe.
Anger surged through me in violent waves, hot enough to make my hands shake. I pressed one palm to the wall and forced my breathing to steady, fighting to keep my composure from splintering.
Then a man’s voice broke the silence behind me.
Low. Sharp. Unmistakable.
“How much longer is she planning to keep up the performance?”
I froze.
Every muscle in my body locked.
Slowly, I turned, my heartbeat thundering as my eyes searched the corridor for the person who had spoken.
第3章
My pace slowed when I neared the estate’s private lounge. Low voices leaked through the heavy wooden doors, blurred but still sharp enough to catch my attention. Instinct took over. I stepped into the shadows beside the wall, careful to keep out of sight.
A man inside let out a dry laugh. “Imagine being married off for obligation. If Damian were still here, Nikolai wouldn’t have gotten away with it.”
Another voice followed, quieter but just as cruel. “Don Damian would’ve never let his baby sister be reduced to this. Tragic, really.”
My whole body went rigid.
They were talking about Damian.
My brother.
A beat of silence passed before someone lowered their voice even further.
“There’s talk he never died at all. Some say he made it out alive.”
For a second, I forgot how to breathe.
The corridor seemed to tilt beneath me.
Alive?
After all this time?
My hand pressed harder against the wall as I fought to stay standing.
Inside, the conversation carried on, careless and unaware that every word was tearing through me.
“Only Don Nikolai and the old guard know what really happened to the Vaughn family that night. She’s been kept clueless from the start.”
A snicker answered that. “Poor thing. She was just a child when it happened—easy to shape, easy to feed whatever story they wanted. No wonder she clings to affection like it’s oxygen.”
Nausea rolled through me.
The Vaughn massacre.
That was how the papers had described it years ago, though the newspapers never printed the truth. My parents. My brother. Our entire bloodline nearly erased in one night of gunfire, flames, and betrayal. I had only fragments left from that night—screams, smoke, heat, and the metallic smell of blood thick in the air.
I had always been told Damian died protecting me.
That he bought my life with his own.
But what if none of that had been true?
Then came Via’s voice, smooth and poisonous.
“She’s pathetic, really. Still looking at Nikolai like he ever gave a damn.”
That hurt more than I wanted it to.
My fingers shook, but I refused to stay hidden another second. Drawing in a slow breath, I pushed the door open and stepped inside.
The room went dead quiet.
Every conversation cut off.
Every face turned toward me.
Nikolai, seated near the center of the room, jerked back slightly. His arm had been resting along the back of Via’s chair. The moment he saw me, he dropped it.
Via didn’t move.
She simply lifted her eyes to mine and smiled, smug and polished, as if she had been waiting for this.
“Vivica,” she said, her voice dripping sweetness that failed to hide the malice beneath it.
I kept my face composed, though everything inside me was in ruins.
“I’m done for the evening,” I said evenly. “I’m going upstairs.”
Nikolai rose at once, a crease forming between his brows. “Vivica, hold on—”
“I said I’m leaving.”
The edge in my voice stopped him cold.
Without giving anyone the chance to speak again, I turned and walked out. My steps were quick, steady, deliberate. I would not let them see me unravel.
Outside, the night air hit my skin like ice. I crossed the grounds toward the main house, my thoughts spinning faster with every step.
Could Damian truly be alive?
And if he was, why had the truth been buried from me?
Why had everyone around me chosen silence?
The moment I reached my suite, I locked the door behind me and began pacing. My mind refused to settle. Question after question crashed into the next, until one name pushed through all the noise.
Lai Halloway.
A man everyone in our world knew by reputation. Elusive. Dangerous. Untouchable. The don who had quietly risen to power after years in the shadows. Months ago, he had contacted me about redesigning a family crest for one of his legitimate businesses. Our dealings had been brief, formal, and perfectly professional.
But every time I sat across from him, something about him had unsettled me.
Not fear.
Recognition.
I stopped pacing and shook my head, trying to throw the thought off before it rooted itself deeper.
No.
It couldn’t be him.
It was impossible.
And yet the whispers from the lounge kept circling back, louder each time.
I went straight to the drawer where I kept letters, contracts, and old business correspondence. My hands were unsteady as I searched through the papers until I found the one I needed.
A letter in Lai Halloway’s handwriting.
I unfolded it and scanned the page again, as if I might suddenly notice something I had missed before—some clue in the wording, some trace of the past, something that would tell me whether my mind was reaching for hope or stumbling toward the truth.
Nothing clear.
Nothing certain.
Just enough to make the ache in my chest worse.
I sat at my desk, grabbed a sheet of stationery, and forced my trembling hand to steady around the pen.
I wrote only one line.
Lai, are you Damian Vaughn?
I stared at it for a moment, my pulse pounding so hard it made my fingertips numb. Then I folded the note, sealed it, and rang for one of the household couriers.
When he appeared, I handed over the envelope.
“Make sure this gets to Mr. Halloway tonight,” I said.
He gave a short nod and left without question.
The second the door shut behind him, I was alone again with the storm in my head.
Not for long.
A few minutes later, my door flew open hard enough to slam against the wall. Nikolai strode in, his face shadowed with anger.
“Why did you walk out?” he demanded.
I turned slowly to face him. “I told them I wasn’t feeling well.”
His stare hardened. “You’ve been off all night.”
I said nothing.
He took another step closer. “What are you hiding from me?”
At that, I looked him straight in the eye, letting years of practiced calm cover everything raging beneath the surface.
“That’s an interesting question,” I said quietly. “Maybe you should be asking it in a mirror.”
His jaw locked.
For a moment, I thought he might say something—deny it, threaten me, lie again.
Instead, he only stared, then turned sharply and walked out.
A second later, the door slammed shut behind him.
The sound echoed through the room.
I let out a shaky breath and pressed a hand to my chest.
The truth was no longer something distant or buried. It was moving closer, forcing its way into the light, and I could feel it in my bones.
If Damian had survived—
if my brother was somewhere out there—
then I would find him.
No matter whose secrets I had to destroy to do it.
第4章
Back in my suite, I pulled up the estate’s surveillance feed on my phone and started reviewing the earlier footage.
I watched the screen in silence, each passing second carving the truth deeper into me. Nikolai Dacre—my husband, my don, the man I had built my life around—had betrayed me so completely that even breathing felt like work. What I once thought was loyalty, fate, and unshakable devotion now felt like a noose tightening around my throat.
Via’s taunting voice still rang in my head.
“She didn’t stir anything in you tonight, did she?”
And Nikolai’s reply—half excuse, half cowardice—hurt far worse than I had prepared for.
The betrayal didn’t stay in my heart. It spread through my whole body, heavy and violent, until my chest ached with it. Rage pressed against my ribs, demanding release, urging me to storm downstairs and tear apart every lie they had built between them.
But I forced myself to stay still.
“Not yet,” I said under my breath, my voice unsteady at first, then firmer. “I need everything.”
I wasn’t going to confront him with suspicion. I wanted evidence. Not only for myself, but for everyone who still bowed their heads when Don Nikolai Dacre entered a room. They deserved to know exactly who they were pledging loyalty to.
So I kept watching.
Every stolen touch.
Every private exchange.
Every glance that lingered too long.
Every kiss.
Each second on that screen poisoned something else inside me. He hadn’t just betrayed our marriage. He had turned our home—our house, our name, our life—into the setting for his humiliation of me.
At some point, I couldn’t take anymore.
I locked the screen and dropped the phone onto the bed, then pressed a shaking hand against my chest as if I could physically keep myself from breaking apart.
The pain sat there like a blade.
“This ends tonight,” I whispered.
And this time, I meant it.
---
The next morning, I walked into Nikolai’s office without knocking.
The room smelled like him—leather, expensive whiskey, cedar, cold control. But beneath it was something else. A faint trace of feminine perfume lingered in the air, light and floral and utterly out of place.
Via.
Even here, she had found a way to leave her mark.
I crossed the room and set a small box in the center of his desk. Inside were the scraps of a marriage I no longer recognized for what it had once pretended to be—old notes, small keepsakes, mementos that had once felt precious and now seemed grotesque.
On the lid, I left a single handwritten message.
For the husband who was never worthy of me. Happy anniversary.
Then I took a steadying breath and opened the drawer where he had kept every letter I had written him over the years.
I stared at them for a moment.
Page after page of love, faith, longing, support. Pieces of myself I had handed over without hesitation. At the time, I thought they meant something. Now they looked like proof of how completely I had loved a man who didn’t deserve it.
One by one, I gathered them up.
My movements were calm, deliberate, almost ceremonial.
It felt less like cleaning and more like erasing a grave.
Behind me, the office door opened.
“Vivica?”
Nikolai.
I didn’t look back immediately. I kept my attention on the last envelope in my hand before finally saying, “What do you think I’m doing?”
There was a pause.
Then his footsteps sounded behind me, slow and measured. “What is all this?”
I turned then, meeting his eyes without hesitation.
“My answer,” I said.
His gaze shifted to the box on his desk, then back to me. His expression tightened. “You’re being dramatic.”
A hollow laugh rose in my throat, but I swallowed it down.
“Dramatic?” I repeated. “That’s what you call this?”
His jaw flexed. “You’re angry. Fine. But don’t turn one mistake into something bigger than it is.”
I stared at him.
One mistake.
Not betrayal. Not deception. Not public humiliation. Just a mistake.
“I gave you everything I had,” I said, my voice low and cutting. “My trust. My loyalty. My name. I stood beside you through every war, every deal, every mess you created. And this is what you did with it.”
He exhaled sharply, frustration flashing across his face. “You don’t know the full story.”
“No,” I said, stepping closer, “I know enough.”
The room went still.
I could feel the anger rising in me again, but this time it no longer felt wild. It felt clean. Cold. Controlled.
“You are not the man I believed I married,” I told him. “And I’m done giving pieces of myself to someone who treats betrayal like an inconvenience.”
His expression changed then. For the first time, something close to alarm entered his eyes.
He reached toward me. “Vivica—”
I stepped back before he could touch me.
“No.”
The single word landed hard between us.
“Don’t stand there and ask me to think about the family, the business, or appearances,” I said. “You should have thought about all of that before you dragged another woman into our home.”
His mouth tightened. “This isn’t only about you.”
I smiled then, but there was nothing soft in it.
“That’s exactly where you’re wrong. For the first time in a very long time, this is about me.”
He went silent.
I took one last look at him—at the man who had once been my safe place, my partner, my future—and felt whatever remained between us go cold.
“I’m taking back my life,” I said quietly. “You don’t get to keep it just because you got used to owning it.”
Then I turned and walked toward the door.
My steps didn’t shake.
I didn’t look back.
Whatever we had been, whatever I had once believed we were, it ended the moment he chose to dishonor me and call it nothing.
This was not my ruin.
It was my exit.
And my beginning.
第5章
The morning I was supposed to submit my formal withdrawal to the Commission, an unread email on my laptop made me stop cold.
For a second, I only stared at the sender’s name, my pulse suddenly uneven.
Lai Halloway.
Hope hit first.
Fear followed right behind it.
I opened the message with shaking fingers.
It was short, but it landed like a bullet.
Lai: I am. But who told you? And more importantly… would you even believe me, Ica?
My breath caught.
Ica.
My real name. The name I had been born with. The name buried with my family the night everything was taken from me. No one had called me that in years.
My chest tightened painfully.
Could it really be him?
Could Damian—my brother, the one I had mourned for half my life—still be alive?
I sat frozen in front of the screen, staring at the words as doubt and longing tore through me at the same time. What if this was a setup? In our world, weakness was currency, and grief was one of the easiest things to weaponize.
Family had always been the wound I kept covered.
Now someone was pressing directly against it.
I swallowed hard and typed back.
Vivica: Then prove it.
What followed was an hour of messages that left me unable to think straight.
I asked careful questions, the kind only one person in this world should have been able to answer. Lai responded without hesitation. Dates. Places. Childhood details no outsider could have known. Fragments of a life that had burned down long ago, handed back to me piece by piece.
By the end of it, I could barely breathe.
Then another message came through.
A phone number.
Lai: Call me. This is easier said out loud.
I stared at it for several seconds before finally pressing dial.
The second I heard his voice, something inside me cracked.
“Vivica?” he said.
His tone was low and steady, but there was warmth in it—real warmth—and it shattered what little composure I had left.
“Lai…” I whispered, my throat tightening as tears rushed to my eyes. “Tell me the truth. Is it really you?”
“It’s me,” he said quietly. “And I know that isn’t enough yet, so I’ll prove whatever you need me to prove. I should have found you sooner. I know that.”
I closed my eyes, gripping the phone tighter.
My voice came out unsteady. “Then where were you? Why didn’t you come back?”
There was a pause on the line.
Then, more heavily, “It’s a long story. One I’ll tell you. But right now what matters is this—I’m out, and I can get to you. Tell me honestly, are you safe?”
The question split right through me.
He still knew how to hear what I wasn’t saying.
And just like that, everything I had been holding in spilled over.
“I need to leave,” I choked out. “Please… get me out of here.”
His answer came without delay.
“All right. Send me where you are. I’ll have a car to you immediately.”
I wiped at my face. “Where would I even go?”
“To Hollow Point,” he said. “It’s secure. Off the map unless you already know how to find it. You’ll be safe there.”
“Hollow Point?” I repeated, thrown by the unfamiliar name.
“You don’t need the whole story yet,” he said. “You just need to trust me long enough to get out.”
I pressed my lips together.
For the first time in years, trusting someone didn’t feel like surrender.
It felt like survival.
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That evening, after formally delivering my withdrawal to the Commission, I returned to the Dacre estate one last time.
The meeting had been brief, efficient, and exhausting in a way no one in that room could have understood. By the time I reached my suite, I felt hollowed out.
I packed lightly.
Only what mattered.
Only what was mine.
When I reached the drawer where I’d kept the letters I once wrote Nikolai, my hands went still.
There were dozens of them. Pages filled with devotion, patience, faith, apologies I never should have made, and love he had never truly earned. I had written them during long nights, during fights, during absences, during those years when I still believed loyalty could fix what neglect had broken.
I gathered every one.
Then I carried them outside.
One by one, I fed them to the fire.
The edges curled first. Then the ink darkened, blurred, and disappeared. Sheet after sheet turned to ash until there was nothing left of that version of me except smoke rising into the evening air.
I stood there until the last page was gone.
That was my goodbye.
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By the time Nikolai returned to the estate, the silence hit him before anything else did.
The house was too still.
Too empty.
He stepped inside and loosened his tie, already frowning.
“Vivica,” he called out, his voice carrying through the halls. “I’m home.”
Nothing answered him.
His pace quickened.
He checked one room, then another, irritation giving way to something sharper with every unanswered call. By the time he reached the back of the house, that unease had become something close to panic.
That was when he saw the ashes.
A blackened pile in the yard.
Burned paper. Half-destroyed envelopes. The remains of something deliberate.
He crouched, sifting through the debris until he found a piece of paper that hadn’t been fully consumed. The handwriting was unmistakable.
Mine.
The blood drained from his face.
He straightened abruptly and headed back inside.
“Where is she?” he barked at the first staff member he saw. “Where the hell is my wife?”
The poor woman flinched. “I—I don’t know, sir. She was here earlier, but—”
He didn’t wait for the rest.
He went upstairs, cutting through the corridor toward our room, and the moment he saw the open closet and missing luggage, whatever remained of his denial collapsed.
He turned and strode to his office.
There, in the center of his desk, was a note.
Placed neatly.
Waiting for him.
He picked it up with unsteady hands and read the line written across it.
For the husband who never deserved me. Happy freedom day.
His grip tightened around the paper.
For a moment, he just stood there, staring at the words as if they might change.
They didn’t.
Panic rose fast and vicious.
He could feel it then—not some mystical bond, but the brutal finality of absence. The unmistakable understanding that I had not stormed off, had not retreated for the night, had not left to cool down.
I was gone.
Truly gone.
And for the first time since I had become part of his life, Nikolai Dacre realized I had chosen to leave without asking for permission.
He reached for his phone immediately, dialing my number with trembling hands.
The second it rang, he spoke into the silence like a man already unraveling.
“Vivica,” he said hoarsely. “Why are you doing this?”